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So this month has been completely crazy and I have not had that much time to do much of anything aside from work class and work haha…i hope everyone is doing great and had a wonderful 4th of July weekend!!! I went down to Georgia for a few days to visit my father and we went to Hilton Head, SC and let me just say how gorgeous that was just walking along the beach looking at everyone having fun it was just a refreshing feeling BUT let me also say how much that got me motivated to do well on my lifestyle change:). I should be heading back there in late August and I am so excited.

I finally started my night class, history of photography and yuck its not horrible but it is not great. I got my first paper back and got an A- I hope that those grades continue and that my hard work will pay off. I have my first midterm on Thursday (WISH ME LUCK). I’m basically going to be spending the rest of my day studying!

Who all believes that everything happens for a reason?? Just asking because I have recently started praying and just finding my faith and it just helps me a lot in my daily life. Everything to me now is so refreshed and I love it.

In the diet department, I have lost 2lbs but I also just finished my TOM so I’m not sure if its water weight or not but at the end of the week we’ll see. I also went to do groceries yesterday and bought some fruit, milk, kashi cereal and melba snacks. OH and by fruit i mean bananas as well and let me just say how much I HATE BANANAS but I know that they are good for you so I might as well eat the damn thing right?! LOL Well, time for me to get ready for work and such.

Hope you are all well!!!

LOVE

so i was just looking at nancy’s one blog about whining and in all honesty, i can’t help but think that is directed towards me! Let me clarify that i’m not saying it was towards me but it rings so true to me!! I am that whiner and honestly i do it but then i don’t even notice my doing it. I feel in some ways i take people for granted and use them to get my feelings out and thats not how i want it but honestly there is only one thing stopping me and that is myself. I need to understand that this weight loss thing is not gonna be something overnight, I have to work at my fitness level: getting my exercise in everyday, eating healthy, BEING ACCOUNTABLE and knowing that there is no reason not to eat healthy and do all these things to get healthy albeit all the obstacles that i may face. The thing is EVERYONE IS FACING THE SAME ONES OR WORSE!! Open your eyes people what we might think is the worse might actually not be!!! Goodness I NEED to stop complaining and own up to myself and my life. This is for me and noone else. I need to stop the late night eating, drinking, getting like no sleep, and not exercising everyday. Each person has their own journey…i like that one its totally true, accurate and honest. No one is going to lose the weight like everyone else! It just doesn’t work like that be patient, persevere and DO NOT GIVE UP. I love each and everyone of you on here and I know we will all achieve our goals. I am here always for whoever needs it though sometimes it seems like I might be MIA i am right around the corner. ALWAYS KNOW THAT.

Well I’m off to bed (at least i think so). Let tomorrow be a new day and let everyone persevere throughout.

LOVE

I don’t have much time right now, actually going to bed in a sec but I just wanted to check in and say hello!! I hope you all are doing well and keeping up on your life changing a goals! I am pretty busy for the next 2 days so Friday hopefully I will have time to check in on everyone and comment and such. I do also have a question–what are peoples thoughts on subway??

well time for bed! God Bless you all and have a wonderful next few days!!!!

LOVE

that statement was in one of nancy’s blogs and that is the best thing I have heard in a long time!!! JUST DO THE DO don’t think about it just do it you know you need to so why think twice about it?!?! JUST DO IT!!!!!

Thanks Nanc!!!

Oh man I have not blogged in a few days!! I have been so busy and everything just started to pile up and work is crazy ridiculous but i actually have a day to breath! lol my friend came to visit on friday (which came in perfect time) so we of course had to be entertained LOL so we went out both nights, friday and saturday and had a good time with some new friends! Yesterday was the first time that I actually went out and didn’t drink and STILL had fun and i liked that. It wasn’t cause i didn’t want to drink or anything but friday night was ROUGH and I also needed to drive since my friend was drinking but all was good. The bad thing is that I ate so much in the past 2 days not horrible food but way more than expected or needed…BUT yesterday at like 1am I felt it was completely necessary to go to wendy’s with my friend and get something to eat. THAT WAS A BAD DECISION a huge slip up but I won’t let it get me down…today tomorrow and the rest of my life is a new day. Its up to me to know how to go about fixing the slip up so that it doesn”t happen again.

I hope everyone’s weekend went well and was eventful and full of life! OH AND HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!:)

LOVE

So today was a very very decent day!! I got to sleep in finally and I got everything done that needed to be done today as well :). I paid off my tuition for the summer a whopping $3520.50 great isn’t it?! LOL but then after that I went to the gym and did some cardio for 50 minutes and my legs are shot but its great!! Im currently sitting at work doing nothing but writing in this blog. I just saw this guy who I have the biggest crush on well highschool crush..HES PUERTO RICAN and I don’t know what it is but the spanish and the body yum!! I love it but yea about that anyway!!! I just thought I would check in on what was going on with me!

I’ll blog/comment later!!:)

LOVE

Well I haven’t written in like 2 days I have been so exhausted and just haven’t had time to write. I didn’t get a chance to really work out on Tuesday but I did do my cardio video and jump roped until my roommate came in with a dilemma of her own. So that had to end and advice was needed. Yesterday was just NOT a good day at all!! My morning started out with me trying to figure out what money I had to pay for my summer tuition. I was about $50 short because I miscalculated what I had so then I had to call a bunch of people to try and figure out what I could do and where to get the money from. I finally left for work at 8:50am had to be there by 9am and it’s about 30min away from my dorm so that was pretty rough. Once I was getting off the thruway to get on the other highway, my tire maintenance light came on on my car and that scared the crap out of me. I was just thinking oh Lord I really hope my tire doesn’t pop off or anything! On top of all that my supervisor at work just made my afternoon not so pleasant. I mean I work there until 4 then have to drive another 30min back to my other job and she knew that though she decided to hold me until about ten after 4 and I was stuck in traffic for like 20 minutes goodness it was just a rough day! I honestly just decided that a break was needed and I took one so I did not work out yesterday.

I have realized something though when I started my weightloss back in January, I was counting calories and writing down everything that I had eaten for the day and alloted 1600 calories to my day. I had lost a considerable amount of weight every single week that is until I stopped counting those calories but honestly some people can lose weight without counting those calories BUT I am realizing that I am not that person. I must be accountable for all that I eat and be honest with myself. Thats the only way that I can do it and be successful. Lets see where this takes me!

I hope everyone is having a fantastic day!!

LOVE

So today I actually had a day off so i planned my day accordingly until my plan went out the window! I woke up and got ready to head to walmart to develop pictures for my dad for father’s day. I went to the place and it turns out the guy that was helping me was wrong so I continued to go on choosing what pictures I wanted to print and it came out to $164 though on the screen all that was there was $64 so I had to cancel everything and reprint it. I then had to sit there and wait for about 30-45 minutes to get the pictures. I then decided to shop around and bought a new sports bra cause I seriously don’t have enough, a tank top to work out in in addition to my other ones, a workout video, and a jump rope. The pictures did not turn out as well as I had hoped but all in all that went off well then I had to go find a post office to mail the card for fathers day and had to go searching around for one seeing as how im not from the buffalo area. I finally found one and it took me a while to get everything situated:( By the time my errands were done it was already time to go into work which means that my 2hr workout that was supposed to begin at 2pm did NOT happen!

This is another reason why I decided to buy those workout tools because then I won’t have an excuse to not work out if the gym happens to be closed, i can just pop in the dvd or do some jump roping or run some stairs. There are so many different ways to stay fit, the gym is not the only way and I am slowly noticing that and its great to know because the gym can get so monotonous!! Anyways hopefully I’ll be able to get a workout in today during work! If not I will just go home and work out there.

Meanwhile my eating has been pretty decent! I had some tuna today and bread aka a tuna sandwich haha, grapes, apple slices with granola and nonfat yogurt and a fruit cup with light syrup and Im going to have an orange and a healthy choice dinner and I also had milk too!! I am on a fruit kick lately don’t know why but I like it!

On a side note, I have kind of been afraid to weigh myself:X I weighed myself like a week ago but the scale was wrong/broken and each time I tried to weigh myself it said something different. But in general Im just afraid of what I might see but I guess I have to get over it. I just would rather continue what Im doing instead of getting strayed by the numbers I am getting on the scale. That is my problem the numbers always discourage I just want to continue and go on with the work out and go from there!!

I hope everyone’s day has been going well!!!!

Love

Ok so what is new with everyone??!?! I hope you are all having a wonderful day!! Last night I came back to buffalo from having a long vacation at home it was great!!! I surprised my mama with roses and she loved it!:) Anyways, yesterday I came back to the most random feeling of dread and I was just so frustrated with everything that I could possibly be frustrated with. I kept looking for a gym that was open 24/7 so that I could go work out but there were none open so what did I do? I ran up and down the 6 flights of my dorm building twice. Let me just tell you my legs hurt so bad I was in so much pain:X but it felt great. Today I went to the gym and worked out for about 30 or so minutes, the only amount I could fit in seeing as how my boss was there and we are technically not supposed to work out when we’re working but I pulled it off. I also went grocery shopping and got some regular healthy things. I also found this apple, granola and yogurt treat and it looks GREAT I can’t wait to try it!!!!

Well I hope everyone’s day is going well!!! Can’t wait to hear from you guys :)

LOVE

So I have not written a blog in a LONG time. It has been the biggest rollercoaster of emotion: anger, frustration,self doubt, stress and everything else that can be thought of. At first I stopped blogging and weight loss and everything because school was getting hectic, tests were so intense and the work load got so out of control i was literally getting maybe 3hrs of sleep a night. I know it just sounds like im complaining when everyone else has the same problems and for that I am sorry but it just came to be too much so I decided to call it quits BUT i am now back and ready for action I have to be I have slowly realized how I am beginning to like exercise and how it makes me feel, the soreness after the workout and the sweat that pours down my body it feels so good!! HAH i just realized how gross that sounds but I think you get the point though.

By the end of the semester, I finished with a 3.34 GPA and let me tell you that is not what I wanted but in all honesty I could’ve done worse I suppose but next semester I have to make deans list again like my first semester of my sophomore year (I am now gonna be a junior :))

My plans for the summer: living up in buffalo ( my hometown is 3hrs away and this is my first time living on my own), i am interning at a human resource consulting firm, taking a class and get this WORKING AT A GYM hahaha surprise surprise right?

My usual day goes as follows: wake up at 7:30 leave for work at 8am, stop for coffee and start work at 9. The work day involves anything from client visits, seminars, court hearings and so on. Then I get out at 4pm and head to my job at the gym 4:30-8pm. Now my job at the gym is usually very lenient so I go to work out (or at least try to) at 7 and usually go for 45 minutes. Then I go home and eat dinner late I know but I don’t know how else to go about it….ANY IDEAS?

Tuesdays and Thursdays I am off so that then means that I can work out for at least 1-2hrs before work which is great!! But do I usually do it? NO I often have errands to run that limit my time so I blame it on that but I know that I can find the time. Another problem that I have is that I feel as if when im working out people are watching and that makes me feel so self conscious and I know that there is really no reason for me to feel that way cause everyone else is there to work out so yea I just NEED TO GET OVER IT!!

The other day I went to workout at my gym at home and it felt SO GOOD!!! I did somewhat of a circuit training I think its called not sure though but I was on the elliptical for 15min then ran on the treadmill for 5min (keep in mind that I DON’T run), back on the elliptical for 15min, stair climber for 15min then back on the most ridiculous elliptical i have ever seen for 15min. So all in all, 45min on the elliptical, 15 stair climber and 5 on the treadmill. Now about that elliptical, I was on a regular one and then a different one that was so inclined my legs hurt BAD but it felt so good!! There was a fan in the gym in every corner so I felt like I wasn’t working hard but I was and I was there for about an hour or so.

I kind of want to start running but I am the type of person that just goes for it. So I’m not sure how to do it or what to do to start out so any ideas would help!! please and thank you!:)

Being at school for the summer, I have no kitchen that is usable, no fridge except for a small one that freezes EVERYTHING of mine, and it is really hard to eat healthy, or maybe I’m just not finding the way to do so…AGAIN ideas/suggestions would be greatly appreciated!!

This following message is in caps just so noone misses it: I AM BACK AND READY FOR ACTION AND I AM SO GLAD THAT I AM!! I HAVE MISSED EVERYONE ON HERE SO MUCH AND I CANNOT BELIEVE I HAVE BEEN AWAY FROM MY “SECOND” FAMILY FOR SO LONG. I HOPE YOU GUYS ARE DOING WELL AND ACCOMPLISHING ALL YOUR GOALS AND THEN SOME. I HOPE YOU GUYS CAN ACCEPT ME BACK WITH OPEN ARMS. I HAVE TO BE BACK FOR GOOD AND IT IS ON ME TO DO SO I NEED TO RELY ON MYSELF (MAN THAT SOUNDS FAMILIAR DOESN’T IT?) GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND BE SAFE!!

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!